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I Am My Own Savior
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they say you're only crazy
if you think that you're not
do you believe that's true
do you believe in truth
i am my own savior
i'm the one nobody knows yet
my thoughts get pretty loud sometimes
stick an orchestra in a blender
and that's pretty close to what they sound like
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Go To Hell
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i just want you to know
if you go to hell, i'll follow
i know what you've done
because i have too
so if you go to hell, i will too
oh my brother, don't you forget
if you died today, i'd get so sick
on New Year's we shared a common ground
and if we'd died that night, they'd be so down
i don't know why we're still here
but something's up
and who the hell is up there
i thought God had some sort of plan
i want to live
i just want you to know
if you go to hell, i'll follow
all the drinking and the drugs
will rot your brain
so if you go to hell, i'll do the same
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she was the brightest little thing
that ever walked the earth
we're always looking for another life
but it's so hard to find
when you cannot live at all
you were all I ever needed
to make me truly happy
to make me truly honestly sincerely happy
and you were all that I had
but then you left
now I've got to start it all over again
now I'm just another fake trying to be loved
I'm just another flake who needs to feel loved
It's not really that special
It's not really that true
all the things you dream
you wish I'd do for you
If I could I would just forget it all
but it's you my love, into I fall
the truth is there's no truth in us
you know I hate to swear, but I just can't do this
it wasn't meant to be, and no, it never will
you know I'm sorry for everything
I swear it's true
but what the hell am I supposed to do?
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Vampires Die Alone
02:26
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Social Security
04:35
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you see i don't need no one
i've just started having fun
and i'm glad i bought that gun
because i'm sick of them
i'm almost 21
i don't need my brother to buy me alcohol
i don't need my mother to take care of me
because i'm on my own
but now i'm 23 and life is scaring me
insurance is killing me like a new disease
i don't want to live this way
and social security is disappearing
and what does the government have to do with it
they're a fucking joke
and i don't read the articles
'cause i'd burn all my dollar bills
but i need what i hate the most
so i'll just save because i'm getting old
now i have to say that i am ashamed of my family
because they embarrass me
but hopefully that will change
now my son is dead
my wife loved my friend instead
my cousins are criminals
but i still try my best to relate to them
i'm stuck building circuit boards until i'm 54
yet i still can afford all the luxuries of this dirty world
now my friends are gone and my hair is grey
i ache in the places where i used to play
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California Blues
04:27
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well i went down to Georgia with my guitar and cigarettes
singing about my California Blues and it goes like this
well i was only 18, sitting in my bedroom screaming,
"could this be our final meet?"
and you were like a guilty conscience
just feeding me lies to simply hope i die
so what's the point attempting to roll right on
pretending like nothing's got the best of you
i see you staring at my pictures
and the tears are falling down your face
well you're not the best for me
but god damn, do i envy you.
do i envy you?
do i envy?
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This Is Where It Ends
02:36
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hey there kiddo could you find another place to lie
because i think we may have passed the point of no return
listen darling you're about to face an honest problem
i think you may have passed the point of no return
you're skating on thin ice, my friend
this is where it ends
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It's All In My Head
02:02
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well i'm kicking a habit
now i don't give a shit
if my body is cancerous
yeah i'm sure it's all in my head
so i will be thankful if tomorrow i wake
and i'll be really lucky then if i see 28
because everyone i know
well, they're on their way out
and i will be too real soon
hopefully it's all in my head
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The First Adventure
05:41
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I've plunged into love before
and I began sinking immediately
but I don't think that's going to happen this time
because I've read some books
and I think I've learned enough
12 miles to the gallon and I've got about 40 more to go
and I can't seem to stop with these bad decisions
broken down on the side of the road
we walked - no, we ran - through the freezing cold air
we made it on faith and that's something I seem to lack
and I kept you safe... I promised you'd be safe
we've got a few stories to tell
and I would like to keep them coming
we've got visitors my dear
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Some Other Kind Of Blues
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I thought I knew she was the one
but like Jesus Christ, our time was up
and I was wrong - that's not often true
but like 'W'..... I completely blew it
now I run to hide my pain
like a marathon of panic and shame
nostalgia will never leave
like an open wound that never bleeds
well I'm a wanted man - my chest caved in
and I will not cry anymore
I'm too drunk to talk or write a song
but I'm leaving California
I'm going to find myself some other kind of blues
well I do believe I'll recreate
the same mistakes I used to make
because I'm a sucker
for intelligence, elegance, and high maintenance
after all is said and done
I ran that dreadful marathon
and it was all for you
the dream came true
and now we're both in solitude
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Half Empty
02:26
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yesterday morning I got up out of bed
I had a message waiting in my head
I'd planned to tell her that the time had come
I'd end this misery and no wrong would be done
she said, "darling you are so completely genuine...
...it almost brings me to tears"
and I said sorry I never meant to hurt you like that
but I've been drinking
and you shouldn't believe anything that I say
because it's all wrong
last week I saw you for the first time in months
you looked so beautiful under the sun
I remember everything you said in the car
as I wiped your tears away 'cause I noticed your heart
well it was breaking and so was mine
but there was nothing I could do
so I held her tight and I said
oh lover I will never forget you
now here I sit all alone in this chair
I sold all my clothes and I grew out my hair
I'm all dressed down and I've got nowhere to go
and my only companion is a bottle of cuervo
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I hate watching films about infidelity
I always relate them to us, though I know that it's fake
and I think that you already knew that
but I think it still bothers you every time that I do
I just wanted to tell you I'll always love you
and I'm sorry that everything got so screwed
if I'd known it was going to end this way
I would've treated you a whole lot better than I did
if I'd known it was going to end at all
I never would have dragged you into this in the first place
so lover, this is me asking you one last little thing
please tell me you love me again
because I'd die if I lost you again
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You're Not The Same
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I know I told you that I'd wait around forever
and I meant it when I said it
you're just not the same person
that you used to be back then
so I'm forced to move on yet again and I don't want to
you're just not the same person
that you used to be back then
I was reminded that today
it would've been our anniversary
but I guess that sort of thing
just doesn't apply to you and me
you're just not the same person that you used to be
and while your boyfriends are lining up
lover it's hard to comprehend
it's so clear that what we had together is obsolete
you're just not the same person that you used to be
you're just not the same person
that you used to be back then
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Don't Worry
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here's a verse for you... have fun with your friends
and be sure to remember not to think of me again
'cause I'm not going to take this anymore
so I'll just tell you instead
don't worry because you'll never see me again
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well I packed my bags for Wichita
to visit my sweet Mary
because she got really sick
and I thought she could use the company
and I knew it'd take a long time
but I wasn't sure what to expect
so I told myself it would all be worth the drive
so I drove across the panhandle
and I bought myself a nice sweatshirt
it said, "it's a Texas thing... ya'll wouldn't understand"
but trust me once I saw it
I knew right away I could relate
because my friends, you just don't understand
it's funny how everything is the same
but then again it's really not at all
and these strangers I keep talking to
don't even know my name
but I don't know them either so it's okay
and I stayed a night in Texas
with my grandmother and Mr. Lee
and it seemed like everyone had turned against me
I got into an argument on the phone with my mother
and they told me "find your own way home"
so I did my little mantra
and I told myself to just hold on
because in all honesty, it's really not that bad there
and I knew it would all be worth it
once I saw that look on Mary's face
when she saw me standing at her door
she opened that screen door
and her eyes were filled with happiness
and I realized that moment alone
was worth the whole trip
so I came inside, sat down, relaxed
and she gave me a few special things
to remember her by
"it's in the cards, it's in the cards!"
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A Loving Anthem
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it feels so cold so come and hold onto me
because baby you and I
well, we are meant to be
I don't want to live, I don't want to love anybody else
I just want to live, I just want to love,
I just want to be with you
I love you so and I will never let you go
I just wanted to let you know I will always be with you
hey everybody look, we're oh so happy now
because we're finally together
now watch us be forever
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I'm a bird, you're a bird, let's fly south to mate
baby don't worry I'll wait til you come again
and I know if we ever fly home
they'll throw a chain around you
and toss me in a padded cage
well let's walk around, sing and shout
all around this desert town
let's point to gold and break the mold
that binds us to our boring homes
and I know if we ever grow old
they'll throw a chain around you
and toss me in a nursing home
well I'm in love with everyone
and never have I told a lie
the devil listened to this song
and joy was flowing from his eyes
and I know if I ever told a soul
they'd tie a rope around my neck,
then drop the floor and watch me die
well I'm a bird singing songs til the end of my days
you're a bird soaring so far far far away
and today, if you ever wanted to see me
you'd see that they threw a chain around me
and tossed me in a padded cage
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Goodnight, Candlelight
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when I was young, maybe 12 or so
my grandmother fell and died
you see, for the longest time, I blamed myself
because I wasn't there in time
I used to care for her
everyday after school during the week
she told me stories in her native tongue
and I could never understand
well all my life I tried to find
just one thing that I truly love
but every time I thought I was right
it turned out I was embarrassingly wrong
so goodbye and goodnight, candlelight
to all my friends who loved me then
I'm sorry I must go so farewell and goodbye
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